Focus on where you are Going

About 6 months ago I saw what the end of my life... looks like.  When I first go to tell people this, I see their face in shock, with an "Oh my God" expression.  And "Oh my God YES... it is great."

I can't tell you exactly how I will die, I can only tell you that there is a great group of Ascended Masters and Angels around me which appear to be saying something along the lines of "Congratulations you made it."  There are no actual words in the scene there is only a sense of feeling so incredibly happy and at peace.

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A few years back I came across the teachings of Paramahansa Yogananda who's message is to help all souls see that we are here to self-realize.  To me that means a true returning to God, not in any kind of religious fanatical way... To me it is a peace and balance that yes I am living in this world but it is not my true home.  Hence this may be some of my motivation to travel b/c on some level none of this really feels familiar or permanent, and that is ok.

When you start to get it... that this lifetime is only a short journey, then the little things, the worries and the doubts, and the attachments both to things and people begin to fall away and that is ok too.  I believe love always remains as the only permanence.  Love is not physical, it cannot be boxed or weighed, counted or destroyed it just IS.

So my path --  is to know who I am by having a beautiful relationship with God, whom I include in my daily thoughts and conversations.  

I have often heard this statement that as you progress on the spiritual path, you grow and become stronger and your challenges get bigger.  This is only true to a point and then things become so much easier.  I would say the biggest one comes when you are asked to look at your attachments.  Us humans can be so obsessive of our things and people in our lives.  So the good news is that now you know what you have to let go of to be truly happy.  And that begins with letting the past go and wiping the slate clean.

I was at the Lake Shrine Temple Grounds the other day in deep contemplation - looking out at the beautiful lake while doing a letting go ceremony from my past.  And as I turned to walk away this man who had just passed me from behind turned towards me and our eyes connected.  I did one of those things in my head thinking, "are you looking at me?"  And then very slowly he began to walk towards me.  As he got closer to me I asked him, "do you have something to tell me?"

And he said "Yes" 

His words still resonate in my heart and I found them to be so profound and timely because only a few minutes before that encounter I had picked up one of Paramahansa Yogananda's books called: HOW YOU CAN TALK WITH GOD.  I knew this man was a direct messenger from God to me.

The man proceeded to say to me, "You are in the right place, you are just looking in the wrong direction."  He pointed out to me that if I would have just turned around I would have seen this sign.

I smiled at the man and thanked and told him that I was actually very familiar with these grounds and I had seen the sign.  But then before brushing him off I realized that he had a very strong point for my life, and that was I was looking at my past when I could be looking at my present and even my future.  As a tear of happiness came to my eye, I knew in that moment that the actual presence of God was calling me forth.

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The Sunday previous to this encounter I had picked 2 cards for a client and what came up was: FOCUS & DETERMINATION.

 

When I got to the SRF morning service, these two words were shared by the minister.  You have to know where you are going in life.  No more of this wishful thinking that does not sustain us.  Whatever you are doing - do it with conviction, with passion, with wholeheartedness and you will get there by way of Focus and Determination. 

I think why people don't get what they say they want is because they don't really want it - meaning their higher self actually knows better.  From my experience the path of self-realization and union with the divine has been the most soul fulfilling and I am here to say it does get easier.

Trust that you can let go of all your worldly attachments and that you will be ok.  The fear is that you won't be ok, but let me tell you when you get to the level of actually truly being able to do it - the stuff in your life will no longer have a hold on you.

Peace, Peace, Peace ~ I am the Happy Pilgrim ~

Happiness Discovered

Did you ever notice how the word abundance has the ending 'dance' in it.  People always seem to be wanting to call in more abundance - well if you start dancing a little bit more in appreciation for what you already have in your life now.... and whatever you are seeking will come to you a lot quicker!

Yesterday I went to a new park called, Rustic Canyon in the Pacific Palisades.  I had not planned on writing there. Originally I was guided to attend a CODA meeting but when I arrived to the site no one was there. So knowing that we always have the option of being disappointed or looking at the bright side of the way things turn out, I took the latter choice.  It was such a magical place in the trees.  Where I have been residing there is a lot of traffic and houses all close together.  Being at this park was like entering an enchanted mystical playground for me.  I pulled out my laptop and began typing away feeling so inspired and joyful.  The article I was writing about shared my mission of being The Happy Pilgrim, and that I truly was happy living this free spirited life of the traveling healer.

By the next day, I found my energy spiraling downward, and my mood had shifted towards lethargy, quickly moving towards depression.  I feel it is so important I share this story with you.  Should you ever find yourself in a similar situation you have a way to get out of the hole you went down and return to the light of happiness, ASAP.  Within 24 hours, I was back to my happy self and I will explain the cure.

When your mood shifts in a drastic way, the first thing you need to do is catch it - see that your feelings have changed. If you catch it at the beginning you can resolve it very quickly. 

So I had to ask myself how could I go from being so happy typing in the park to miserable by the end of the night.  The first that came to me was this very important question, "Am I living in my integrity?" if you are not -- you will quickly find yourself in a depressed state.  The sad thing about this is many people spend years and years depressed, not living their life calling.

Thankfully the 2.5 years I spent healing and training in Sedona, Arizona provided me with an astute awareness of my psychic and intuitive abilities.  You know how people say they can see what is best for another but not for themselves - well you can know for yourself too.  It just takes practice.  I cleared my energetic field and realized that why I was becoming sad was that I was not living what I had set out to do.  My calling at this time was to be a traveling healer and I had become quite comfortable in my current living situation. 

It was all very synchronistic how I met Ayrin who graciously & generously opened her home up to me.  We made an agreement that I would stay as long as I felt I needed to be here and we would check in a daily basis.  As much as I appreciated her hospitality in exchange for the light and positive energy I was bringing to her house - my spirit was not ready to settle into a daily life of familiarity for an extended time period.  My soul was all about moving and flowing - waking up each day and saying to my Guide CASIO - where shall we go today?

Although the resources to travel on had not yet presented themselves.  Even still I knew it was time to continue the journey.  My life with each passing day was becoming more and more a living faith walk.  I knew that the resources would come.  How you may ask? I did not yet know how or where they would come from, this was part of the adventure of this journey.  To not know and to still act, to trust when all the pieces were not yet laid out - that is mastery, that is full surrender.  I just kept being guided to live with an anticipation of wonderful things coming my way every day and they were coming.

When you walk through the world on the shaman's path you become a seeker of guidance from many different view points - today on my walk to and from the beach I found these words spray painted on the side walk.  Most people would just walk on by not even noticing... but if you keep your eyes open you will find your Angels are always sending uplifting notes to keep you walking in your integrity.

I particularly enjoyed this one.  I hadn't heard the phrase used together:"Dream Big and Small."  I am quite familiar with the DREAM BIG slogan, adding the DREAM SMALL made a lot of sense.  It can be quite easy and fun to imagine a grandiose vision for our life.  Yet when the concept is so grand it may take awhile before our mind can truly believe it is possible for full manifestation to realize itself.  During the waiting time frame, which can linger on and on there is a chance we may become disheartened in the stillness.  In the interim if we focus on small things that are easy to manifest we get to live in positive outcomes on a daily basis.  Very good wisdom passed on to me through Mr. Anonymous "Sidewalk Spray Painter."

Words of wisdom: Live your life in your integrity and you will always be happy - it is very simple.  Ask yourself, "Am I doing what I love, Am I doing what makes me happy?"  And the most important question of all: "Are your words you speak about yourself in alignment with your actions?" If they are not -- find a way to get there - there is a yellow brick road that always leads you home to your true heart and true soul calling. 

Casio in 2013 on the Yellow Brick Road in Liberal, Kansas.  He was my traveling buddy and now he travels with me in Spirit Form as my Guide.

I love him so much and I am so grateful to still have him as my co-pilot.

When our loved ones pass they can still travel with us and to me that is a very comforting thought.

Returning Home

For me to have been able to set sail on the Greatest Journey and triumph as I am - I had to return HOME first to my roots.  The past 3 years I had been living in small towns from 2500 to 10,000 people.  I never would have thought I could even handle a place like Venice Beach.  According to an on-line census I am now surrounded by 40,000 people in this town with an average of 11,800 residents per square mile.

  

One thing that I got out of living in Sedona, Arizona for 2.5 years was learning how to master my energy.  Sedona is known to be one of the most beautiful places on earth surrounded by ornate red rock formations and hundreds of energy vortexes.  I have met many people who say there would love to live there,... but actually living there can be somewhat of a challenge.  The intensity of the earth energy is constant - which in my case meant that I was under continuous self-reflection.  When I first arrived a physical ailment showed up that I had to heal.  From then on.... it was a day in day out mental & emotional overhaul.  The average time frame most people stay is 2-3 years.  Sometimes you get called back for a tune-up as is what happened to me.  I had thought I was ready to leave Sedona 4 months ago and I tried only to find myself back in it for another couple of months.  What I have come to discover is that if you have stayed committed to the self-healing regiment that is demanded of you, than from my personal experience you get sent back out into the world to share what you have learned - hence my Great Traveling Journey.

As I have stepped back into the big cities where on some levels I could be inundated with other peoples thoughts and overwhelmed by the populous I am finding that my energy has balanced from my time in Sedona.  I can tune into my own personal needs at any given time, and then shift gears to tune into what my clients need with a clearer direct connection. I have the beautiful town of Sedona to thank for this renewed gift.

 Cathedral balance of Male/Female

 Amazing Sedona Skies

  

 BellRock

 Courthouse - where you release your judgements

Angelic passageway view from Cathedral Plateau

Although Sedona was not my birth place it was the beginning of a returning home... to remembering and honoring my gifts as a psychic & healer.  It was through meeting Roz Reynols (www.psychicatyourservice.com) who continues to be my Life Coach on this journey, that I realized who I am and how I am able to be of service in this world.  I highly recommend connecting with Roz, she has rock solid wisdom that keeps me in touch with my true nature and I see how she has helped so many people find their path.

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Two weeks ago I knew that it was time to leave my current location so listening to my inner guidance I was drawn to go to Venice.  I spoke with Roz later that day, and she said the exact same thing, "I see you going to Venice Beach"  It was an added confirmation that I was on the right track.  Coming to Venice opened a new portal of expression for me.  It is a place where people from all walks of life are accepted.  It is a mishmash of artists of all sorts, who can express their talents because there is room for all of it.

The other thing that is very sacred about me being here is that one town over, which in L.A. just feels like the same town all squished together is -- SANTA MONICA.  Why this is so special to me is that Santa Monica is the place I was born.  I never lived here, I was born in the hospital close to the ocean and then was taken home several towns away to the valley on the other side of the mountains.  My parents decided that I was to be born here.  Now I say my parents "decided" my birth place but that is not entirely true as I -- in uterus was already directing the trajectory of my life.  As is with all children....

 2.5 years old going on 25 years wisdom

Even as a young girl I connected with the EARTH.

Yes all children have already decided on some level why they are coming to earth, what they are here to do, and how the life experiences that appear to be happening to them are pre-created for them to evolve.  "Why do bad things happen to good people?" - is a question many people ask.  And there is a very simple answer in that we have all done things in this or another lifetime that we have to pay for to clear our karmas and when something displeasing appears to be happening to us we have the opportunity to grow and remember our spiritual connection to a source much larger than ourselves.  I call it God.  Name the presence what you want Spirit, Universe, Creator - it makes no difference to me.  All I can say is that when I am communing with God my life is amazing!

At times, we slip and we fall.  We get so excited about the blessings and the material possessions, or the hot new mate that just entered our life - we forget that it is God who gave all of it to us.  Then our life falls apart again and we lose everything... again... and we ask God why?  Well we can play this cyclic pattern over and over again as many times as we like - because we also have the gift of Free Will.  Maybe you get lucky this lifetime or so frustrated with life not working out that you say: ENOUGH. "The only thing that matters in my life now is God and my pathway to Self-Realization... of  the ultimate TRUTH.  No longer will I be tempted by anything that does not bring me closer to God." 

What I know about God is the presence is everywhere and in every thing - what makes an object or a person different is how we choose to see it.  This computer I am typing on could just be another possession or it can be transformed it into a tool for me to share my experiences of the Divine through my writing.  All things are of God.  

How your life gets a whole lot better is when you start acknowledging through prayers of gratitude that everything in your life -- food, shelter, livelihood, your possessions, your family, and friends are not yours to possess or control .  They are passing gifts that God has sent to you with for a moment in time.  Enjoy what you have in each precious experience and be not sad if they every go away - God brings you new things and opportunities to keep you growing. When you let go and trust... His grace alone will always sustain you.

I had to come home to Santa Monica for  a returning home to my birthplace.  Shortly after arriving here I was invited to attend the Santa Monica church.  I have always loved churches because the energy of a church, synagogue, mosque, or temple is always so sacred.  The only thing that happens in that space is worship.  In some of the houses I have lived I have created a room just for meditation and healing, and keeping this separate from all the other activities that goes on allows you always to have a sanctuary of peace that you can go if you need to decompress from your busy day. 

Being incredibly sensitive to energy I feel that when I enter spiritual places like this.  While visiting the St. Monica Church, I remembered that even from an infant I had called in the life path of a spiritual aspirant and teacher of wisdom that I would one day pass on through my own personal journey.  Every thing I had done in my life all of a sudden made sense.  All the spiritual teachers I had met and healers over the past 12 years were helping remember my own true calling.

A few years ago I lived in Taos, New Mexico.  There I met a man named Miguel who claimed to be an ambassador of St. Michael.  He advised that I return to the Catholic Church.  At first I refused.  Many years ago as 13 year old girl I had walked away from my catechism training.  And years later as I proceeded on my spiritual questing I rebuked the Catholic church claiming that they were all about controlling the people.  After deciding to take a further look into it I saw that I had fallen prey to a story someone had told me.  It was a great reminder to be cautious of these large scale stories that circulate in the media.  You will only know the truth when you have walked on the path with your own feet.

I speak of the Catholic faith as my 1st studied religion.  Over the years I have studied them all - not like a book scholar more as an experiential adventurer.  The thing that I love and I have found in common in all of them: is prayer and ritual - two things that fill my life daily.  My life journey is not about choosing one faith or religion solely, it is about choosing the best of all of them thus creating my own unique way of being in touch with God.  And I honor whichever way gets you to the path of the Divine.  

Have you ever tried walking on the sky. 

It is great fun, just lay on your back in the grass, and lift your feet up to the heavens!

Bumper stickers can be great daily messages.  

When you walk the path of the Shaman or Intuitive Observer life becomes so much more interesting and fun!

I am very grateful to have been guided to return to my birth place and to be born in the town of a Saint.  I see this as quite an honor to have come into the world in such good company.  I encourage all people to return to their birth center if it is possible, if it is not possible than find some information about it on-line.  You may be surprised as to what it will bring up for you and what clearings may come that will help you get your own life back on track.

A few of the images that spoke to me while I was visiting St. Monica Church

 The positions of palms turned upward is a sign of receiving God's blessings

Standing with my Mission in St. Monica church of bringing Peace to the People

The Harp goes to the Beach

After I survived my dead car battery in the avocado field, it became clear that the next journey was to head in the direction of Venice Beach which was about an hour south of where I was staying in Santa Rosa Valley, CA.

I trusted that my car battery would be okay and with that being said I took all precautions, like turning off my overhead lights even when I opened the door to not put any extra drain on my battery when the car was turned off.  Our car can be seen as a representation of our bodies - so in taking care of not putting any extra drain on my car, I was also practicing a very gentle self-care of my own body. 

For me, my journey of life is about connecting with people on a soul level and music is a portal that opens people up to a different state of consciousness.  Personally I have experienced this while being immersed in the sounds of very dark, heavy music.  This is not something I chose consciously, yet I am also aware that we are always choosing even if it feels like we are not.

Nine months ago I was going through a real crisis state.  My inner guidance advised me to attend the Self-Realization Temple Sunday service in Phoenix, AZ.  As I was sitting in the temple intently listening to the monk speak - I was at the same time hearing Paramahansa Yogananda download these thoughts directly to me.  He said, that whatever I have ever pushed away I must now incorporate into my life.  I didn't get it until I realized I was all about living in the light and having nothing to do with anything dark.  He informed me that if I did not acknowledge all lights on the spectrum, I would live out of BALANCE, and in misery..., as was my current situation.  

My guru then showed me an image of two cylinders of spiraling energy entering my rib cage - one light, one dark. both merging together in my spinal column.  I kept seeing this image for several days and allowed it do whatever it needed to do.  Hence a month later I found myself listening to some very dark music where I could actually feel the 'demonic' tone of these sounds enter my body and go into right my heart.  This gave me the very clear insight as to the power of sound for creating a portal that would take people on a journey. And having had this experience it showed me that I can create  field of energy of protection to allow into my life what is for my best and highest good.

Having had my feet in both paths, I am now clear as to what vibrations I choose to bring to the people.  When you can stand in the darkness and not push it away but allow it to teach you something than you release your fears, ultimately giving you courage to overcome any obstacle that comes your way.  When you have had enough of its teachings than you can call on your angels to move you to a place where you can stand freely in your element.   

I feel it is important to listen to what moves you with music, and with your life direction.  Sometimes I need to write because the creative energy is flowing asking to be expressed.  Sometimes I need to sit quietly and meditate, or move my body, or call a friend - if only we could all just do what is called for in each moment - what a peaceful world this would be.

I would like to introduce you to some of the wonderful people I have met on Venice Beach.

 I shared the Harp with the L.A. Fire Department while at thanking them for their great service.

 Myself & Jay - I met as she walked her dog 'Moo' down the boardwalk.

 I have a special place in my heart for all children.

It is truly amazing to share this instrument with people.  They get to see how easy it is to create music without any previous training at all.

 The neat thing about Venice Beach is meeting people from all over the globe.

This is Carrie from London, England.  I found out that she runs a charity for children.

When she played herself a melody it brought tears to her eyes.

Jisoo and friend from Korea both played the harp.  You see my mission is not just about me playing the music it is about everyone who wants giving it a try.  The harp is designed with the sound box at the back so the player gets the greatest benefit of sound healing.  The resonance directly enters your heart.  If you would like y our very own harp, the one I play is called a "Harpsicle."

www.Harpsicle-Harps.com

 This is Jeremy he told me at the time he didn't have a secure home but that he was finding a way to make the best of what he has been given.

When he read my MISSION STATEMENT that says: I am here to spread Light and Peace through my Music & Presence, he told me I had done that for him.  It was the music that brought us together to start a dialogue, yet it was taking the time to listen to his life story and his dream of sharing his own music, and his deep connection with the whales that really moved me.

There is an incredible power in "presence" and in being a witness to another persons story.

This is Andres Salcedo whom I also met on the beach as a fellow musician.  I would say the neat thing about Venice Beach is almost every local I met here was in some fashion an artist of sorts.  I love the title of Andres' album "ONE WITH ALL"  This is how I felt at the beach.

http://www.cdbaby.com/cd/andressalcedo2

I found myself so at home and felt a very magical quality to this area.  It just goes to show that when you are in your element life is amazing.  Everything you need comes to you, without having to put out a whole lot of effort.

A reminder that if you are working too hard to get what you want, look at where you are living and who is in your energy field.  Find people who believe in you, and you will thrive.

Lastly I would like to introduce Brandon Doman; who believes in everybody's stories so much that he created a book of random people's life stories on every different topic you can imagine.  What an incredibly cool idea. You can read these one page personal stories on his website: 

www.StrangersProject.com

I like the Venice Beach area and so I am going to stay here awhile - there is lots of light to share.  The beauty of being the "HAPPY PILGRIM" is that I continue to wake up each day and ask CASIO my spirit guide what shall we do or where shall we go today?  I live by Peace Pilgrims definition of the word pilgrim as: a wanderer with a purpose.  Meaning that although my life may seem random and unstructured to some there is great purpose in everything I do.

I mentioned in my last post how I had a friend who was not in agreement of how I was choosing to live my life.  When I reflected on the situation it became clear that she played a role that was important for me to be able to do what I am doing today.  I know that in her heart she just wants the best for me.  

The lesson I received from this exchange is very important for anyone who has ever had a dream they are guided to pursue.  When you share it with those who don't agree with your vision, you may find yourself not taking your chosen path because of outside opinions...or.... you could use the experience to build your convictions and become clearer and stronger in cultivating your mission. 

In some of my other teachings I received from Paramahansa Yogananda, he says it is best not to take life too seriously.  He described life as a movie of characters going by.  Each time a new scene shows up you have the choice of how much energy you wish to put into the dramas that scroll by. Becoming the observer of your life by stepping out of yourself allows greater freedom and less attachment to outcomes, which equals less stress.

In this particular situation instead of remaining frustrated with my friend, I was able to see the grander picture, which was that 1 person out of 50 were against or in doubt of how I was going about my life path.  When I looked at what was really happening I realized the message was very positive.  The outer world feedback was a reflection of how I saw my own self.  Which then meant that 80% of myself believed in what I was doing and 20% of myself still had doubts. 

Since my venture out to Venice Beach this friend asked to no longer be in my life at this time and so this moved me to 100% belief in myself according to the reflection of my outside world.  I can see that as you build the momentum in any desired life goal - (that is developed for the best and highest good of all, with God/Higher Power as the foreman of the venture) - than success is surely at hand.  

When Jeremy at Venice Beach told me that my Mission had already been fulfilled because I had spread Light and Peace to him, I knew that whatever happened now would be a bonus or a surplus of connections above and beyond all the people's lives I had already touched and who had already touched me.

"Stay Tuned" for more beautiful stories.  The phrase "stay tuned" is my new expression for "Be in Balance." Just as a musical instrument must be tuned to play well.  We are all our own personal singing beings - singing a tune to our unique stories.

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Feeling the Fear & Facing it Head On

When I set out on this journey I knew it was more than just a travel vacation - it would be a shamanic walk through life.  Setting the appropriate intention before embarking on any mission is key.

There is a big difference between going camping and going on a vision quest.  I will tell you a story from a few years back.  I was living in Ojai, California - which is another very beautiful spiritual town.

View from Meditation Mount, Ojai, CA

I decided I wanted to go on a vision quest to overcome my fears of being out in nature alone.  I packed a bag and a tent and head out into Matilija Canyon.  I told the shaman I was working with at the time of my decided adventure.  It is often advised that you ask a spiritual teacher to watch over you, even from a distance, when you are going vision questing.

I walked a good distance into the forest and found a small trickling creek, where I set up my tent.  There was a little waterfall at this exact spot. This place brought me great peace.  There was a sense of peace brought about by the moving water.  As dusk began to fall and my fears began to rise, I appreciated the gurgling water over the sound of any kind of crackling branches which to me meant danger was near.

By the time it was completely dark, all I wanted to do was be inside my tent which felt secure and safe.  I climbed in, slid into my sleeping bag which I zipped right to the top and tried to fall asleep immediately.  My my mind began wandering, with thoughts of my possible demise floating rampantly through me.  Luckily I was able to fall asleep soon enough but sleep all night -- I did not do.

The first wake up was half in and half out of dream state.  And what did I find... my worst nightmare.... a bear in my tent - or so thought.  His presence felt so real that as I rubbed my eyes to wake from my slumber, I quickly scanned the tent to see where his claws had torn open the hole for his entrance.  But there were no tears in the fabric and there was no bear.  But oh my God the fear was now sitting with me in my heightened state of awareness.  I prayed for the sun to come up, and I lay as still as a corpse in fear of the potential intruder actually showing up.

I fell asleep again this time laying on my stomach.  I woke up a second time to a heavy presence weighing down on my low back.  Again I cleared my vision only to find nothing in the tent.  I  was positive that a bear had been sitting on my back.  The truth is... the bear had come, not in physical body but in spirit form as a totem animal for me.

The thing is... I had always been scared of seeing the bear in the wild, scared to be alone without the safety net of a solid home.  Bear Medicine had come to me to tell me that it was time to learn how to: STAND MY GROUND.  In standing my ground and having very clear boundaries about what is okay and not okay in how I allow others to treat me, as well as standing strong in my convictions and values; I am day by day becoming more empowered and watching how the miracles continue to unfold for me. 

Image from Steven D. Farmers 

Power Animal Oracle Cards

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Basically my message from this story is that you can live your life in a mundane way, doing the same old things or you can choose to live your life as an "Urban Shaman." If you want life to be more exciting and fun then intend it to be so, everyone can live a life filled with magic and mysticism.

To all of you who feel weighed down by worldly responsibilities I am not saying you have to pack everything up in your car and become a nomad - that is my personal journey right now but perhaps not yours.  You can however, choose to wake up everyday with the element of wonder at what this day is about to bring forth for you.

Which leads me to the next part of my experience; a few days into making the commitment to take on this great adventure, I was leaving the recording studio where I had created a CD of my music and mission with my friend KC.  I was heading home from Fillmore, CA over the hill back to Santa Rosa Valley where I was staying with a friend who was helping me get back on my feet.  I was in an odd mood as I was feeling a little distraught by her wishes that I not continue the life I was choosing to pursue as a traveler.  I was very grateful to her for providing me a home when things in my life were falling apart.  I just wished she could see that what I was about to do was so very important to me.  Even though on the outside it may not have appeared that I could do this; on the inside I was ready to complete the mission I had tried to start several times before.  A calling like this does not go away, it gets buried and festers until you wake up and take the lead reigns and run with all the passion you can muster.

I texted another friend, expressing that I didn't want to go home that night.  -- Let me tell you WORDS are powerful, especially when expressed with deep emotion, and you will see why.

I got an intuitive feeling to pull off the road into an avocado orchard.  I sat in my car and watched the beautiful sun set.  I felt so much peace in my body after the day of being in such a creative mode and having completed my intended project in a very short time.  As dusk faded and the dark night sky came in, I felt it was time to head home.

I put the key in the ignition and turned it,  arrr, arrr, arrrrh, went the engine.  Yikes, I tried again arr, arrh, arrrh and nothing.  I thought don't panic just let it sit a minute.  One more time I tried but just a ticking sound came through... my car battery was dead.  At first I froze remembering that only a few months back I had this same thing happen and the person who started my car said the battery was weak.  "You may need to get a new one soon", they had said, those words now haunting me.  I looked at my phone battery and it was near dead and I was now in distress.  To make matters worse a white pick up truck had driven by a few minutes ago with a young man wearing a baseball cap who had a very eerie feeling about him.  And now he was coming towards my car again.  Great I thought, just what I need, some crazy person and I am stuck in this field.  Luckily he drove past without even questioning me.  I thanked Arch Angel Michael for watching over me keeping me safe and stealth from any mischievous rendez-vous.

Still in a slight state of fear I took a deep breath in and a deep breath out, which is a spiritual tool I use to calm my nervous system.  Then like auto-pilot my mind went into survival mode; who can I call, my phone is going to die any minute, and I don't really have enough money at this point to pay for a tow, or a new car battery.  Then like a cool breeze blowing through the hot desert, a calmness swept over me.  Instantly I went into action mode.

In a trance like manner I stepped out of my car, walked to my trunk and pulled out my Native American Shaman Drum.  I started a slow melodic rhythm matching the sound of the heart beat. Bum-bum.... bum-bum... bum-bum.  It calmed my nerves enough for me to breath again and think of what lay ahead of me.  I had planned to attend a CODA 12 step meeting at 7:30 pm and here it was now 7:00 pm.  All all hope of making it seemed desolate.  Since I had almost all of my possessions in my car I was prepared to sleep there if I had to.  I didn't really want to, but I knew I could as I had already survived my 1st vision quest in the wild, this should be a peace of cake.

In the stillness of the night and the power of the drum I began to chant & drum loudly, "I will make it home..., I will make it to my meeting, I will make it home..., I will make it to my meeting, I will make it home..., I will make it to my meeting."  Even though my mind kept moving in and out of doubt at this prospect, the drum beat and the energy of my thundering voice kept me focused.

About 5 minutes later a bright light in the way off distance appeared, it was so bright it was hard to see what lay behind the light, and it took a long time to be fully visible.  I stopped my ritual realizing that help might be on its way and I didn't want the passerby to be freaked out by a woman standing beside her car drumming.  As a lady in distress I wanted to make myself look as presentable as possible.

I admit I was happy to see the light and scared to know what came with the light. After the other white pick up truck had left the area it left me in a state of fright at what could potentially happen to me if the 'wrong' person was to come along.  This approaching vehicle was moving towards me at a very slow speed, which made it feel like forever until this next looming interaction was to transpire. Soon enough, this one head-lighted vehicle was now only a few feet away.  I could finally see that it was another man wearing a baseball cap, this time on a quad motorcycle.  He stopped right beside.  In the cheeriest voice I could muster I said, "Well hello sir," happy to see it was an elderly gentleman.  "It appears my car battery has died. I stopped to watch the sunset and gosh darn it, when I went to start the car again it was dead. Would you happen to have some jumper cables?" He smiled and said he had some back at the house and that he would circle around and be back shortly with them. 

Farmer Wayne - "The Friendly Stranger"

Wow... to me I was saved by the Grace of God.  Instead of going into full out panic, I drummed, I got into ceremony and I trusted.  And... I did make it to my CODA meeting, 30 minutes late but nonetheless still there honoring that commitment to myself to be present.

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In taking the shamanic path I must BE by myself for this journey.  I love this line from the prayer called Native American Healer, that says: "I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments." Each day I awake loving myself fully and being filled with an inner joy of being with me.  And... if I am guided to connect with others I enjoy that too.

Below is a picture of Dewey W. Cook who I feel is someone who has been energetically taking care of me, like a spiritual guide does when you go on journey. And like the Bear Medicine that spoke to me years ago reiterating the message that I must learn to stand my ground and fend for myself out in the urban jungle.

Dewey began his shamanic practices in his early twenties mostly self-guided, and like myself had the "out of the blue" spiritual masters enter his life at times that guided him to some really amazing discoveries into the other worlds and dimensions.  

Back to the story: earlier that same evening I had been talking with Dewey and he had pulled the "Rabbit" medicine card to read to me.  I had asked him to look it up for me because the day before when I was talking on the phone with him a rabbit came right up to me.

When Dewey read the card to me I felt like he was a little upset with me, which I now understand was his way of saying that he cared and that I better be cautious of what I was doing.  The rabbits message was saying that I was attracting all of my fears to me.  That was not something I wanted to hear at first.  I did realize that every message; whether we want to hear it or not has a meaning especially when we have a strong emotional reaction to something.  So I had to ask myself, "why am I attracting my fears?"  The answer came though clearly, if you call in your fears and face them - they dissolve. And that is exactly what happened to me.  

I knew my car battery had been weak, I knew that all my possessions were now in my car.  And I also knew that if need be - I could live out of my car.  It wasn't my first choice but I I could do it.  The thought of my car breaking down was unconsciously sending my nervous system haywire.  So I called in the fear, then I called in the power of prayer and God's assistance and by doing so the dooming incident was resolved quickly, safely and resulted in my renewed faith for the journey ahead.

I remember hearing Michael Mirdad, the Unity of Sedona minister speak about fear and darkness.  He said, "the difference between the average Joe and a Master is that the average Joe sees the lurking fear and grudgingly goes into it kicking and screaming, while a Master says: Bring it On!"

Well stay tuned to what is coming up next as I travel down to Venice Beach, California.

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